Sporadic Whispers: Musings of a Part-Time Writer

 I'll get straight to the point. I am thinking of putting up Youtube videos. At this point, I actually am posting videos of me drawing and saying random things on there but that is just for a personal challenge I set for myself. You see, I am trying to re(discover) my hobbies and drawing is one of them. Of course, I don't need to film myself and put it on Youtube to pick up drawing again but I felt like it would be a good self-checking method. I currently have 10 videos uploaded over the last month and a half. And to be honest, I kind of like the feeling I have after I put up a video on TikTok or Youtube. It feels a bit similar to the feeling I got when I used to post my thoughts on here through my writing when I was in college. This is also the reason why I started doing this again. I know most people don't read blog posts anymore and I really am not doing this for anyone else. I am writing again here for myself; for my peace of mind. Which is why I am sharing about my You...

 I always thought I was afraid of dying. It's obvious, death is inevitable and all of us have to face it sooner or later. I've always known it like everyone else. And still I have never been able to come to terms with it so to speak. I always thought that the reason behind was that I was simply afraid of dying like most people. The thought of death and what lies after it has kept me awake for countless hours since my high school days. The thought of death has haunted me on busy days and long weekends, on bus rides and long drives, in meeting halls and toilet stalls. But today at work, as I contemplated the idea of death and tried to understand why I have always been afraid of it, I realized that I was not afraid of the actual act of dying and what happens to my body and my soul after my death. I don't consider myself to be a religious person and I have never had a concrete opinion on wether life after death exists. At the same time I also never dismissed one or the other si...