Sporadic Whispers: Musings of a Part-Time Writer

  I was really looking forward to read it before and when I bought the book.  Getting an insight into the life of someone I've seen onscreen has always been fun for me. Plus from  what I have seen of Terry Crews, I always thought he was an interesting human being.  It's not that I didn't like the book.  I just couldn't finish it as soon as I would have liked to. I don't remember when I first started reading the book but it definitely feels like it took me around 6 months to finish the book. There are so many books I have been wanting to read but the thing is I am someone who needs to finish one before  I start reading another. This is the reason why I once didn't read a single book in over a year because I found the book I started reading to be so dull that I couldn't be bothered to finish it.  Which a...

Oh how I have always misunderstood what narcissist meant. And I always thought I wasn't one. There was no way I was one. But then I googled it's meaning today right before I started witing this. Why, you might ask.  I was frustrated at work today, totally lost my temper again. I had so many thoughts rushing through my head as I finished up work and drove back home. I actually wanted to justify my feelings at first. I wanted to do a social commentary on other people's morals and principles or at least of what I presumed they were. And compare it to my own morals. By the time I sat down to write this, I had some time to think and take a deep breath.  My wife has this thing she tells me to remember whenever I lose my temper, especially because of what others do; 'Who are you? Who are you to them? What gives you the right to be mad at others? How is you losing your temper going to change anything?' A "narcissist" refers to someone exhibiting traits of narcissi...

 I'll get straight to the point. I am thinking of putting up Youtube videos. At this point, I actually am posting videos of me drawing and saying random things on there but that is just for a personal challenge I set for myself. You see, I am trying to re(discover) my hobbies and drawing is one of them. Of course, I don't need to film myself and put it on Youtube to pick up drawing again but I felt like it would be a good self-checking method. I currently have 10 videos uploaded over the last month and a half. And to be honest, I kind of like the feeling I have after I put up a video on TikTok or Youtube. It feels a bit similar to the feeling I got when I used to post my thoughts on here through my writing when I was in college. This is also the reason why I started doing this again. I know most people don't read blog posts anymore and I really am not doing this for anyone else. I am writing again here for myself; for my peace of mind. Which is why I am sharing about my You...

 I always thought I was afraid of dying. It's obvious, death is inevitable and all of us have to face it sooner or later. I've always known it like everyone else. And still I have never been able to come to terms with it so to speak. I always thought that the reason behind was that I was simply afraid of dying like most people. The thought of death and what lies after it has kept me awake for countless hours since my high school days. The thought of death has haunted me on busy days and long weekends, on bus rides and long drives, in meeting halls and toilet stalls. But today at work, as I contemplated the idea of death and tried to understand why I have always been afraid of it, I realized that I was not afraid of the actual act of dying and what happens to my body and my soul after my death. I don't consider myself to be a religious person and I have never had a concrete opinion on wether life after death exists. At the same time I also never dismissed one or the other si...