Re(Discover)

 I'll get straight to the point. I am thinking of putting up Youtube videos. At this point, I actually am posting videos of me drawing and saying random things on there but that is just for a personal challenge I set for myself. You see, I am trying to re(discover) my hobbies and drawing is one of them. Of course, I don't need to film myself and put it on Youtube to pick up drawing again but I felt like it would be a good self-checking method. I currently have 10 videos uploaded over the last month and a half. And to be honest, I kind of like the feeling I have after I put up a video on TikTok or Youtube. It feels a bit similar to the feeling I got when I used to post my thoughts on here through my writing when I was in college. This is also the reason why I started doing this again.

I know most people don't read blog posts anymore and I really am not doing this for anyone else. I am writing again here for myself; for my peace of mind. Which is why I am sharing about my Youtube idea here. It's more of a "should I?" than an idea right now but still I am putting this out here for the world to see (if anyone actually reads anymore) rather than thinking about it over and over in my mind.

So like I said, I am putting up videos of me drawing (anime characters for now) but I do want to expand on the type of videos I want to do. The videso are around 25 to 40 minutes long, with awkward silences in between and unflattering angles of my hand as I draw. And when I do say something, my voice sounds just..... ufff. I don't think people will want to watch that. But at the same time I do want to keep putting up these videos because like I said earlier, this is a way for me to keep myself in check.

I don't think I can do lifestyle vlogs like most Bhutanese people are doing these days because there really is not much happening in my life these days (or most of the time) that's worth sharing through videos. And if I do want to share something I can do it here and re(discover) writing. 

One idea that I keep circling back to is doing reaction videos, especially songs. One of my absolute favourite things to do is listening to songs/music. And I don't really have strict genre or language that I stick to. I listen to anything that catches my ears. The only problem I have with this is that I don't react a lot or say much when I am listening to songs for the first time which is why I am a little hesitant about this right now.

I also want to do book and movie/ series reviews but I haven't been able to complete the one book I stared reading toward the end of last year. I don't watch a lot of movies/ series these days. So I can't do reviews unless I read books and watch stuff, right? There are so many books I want to read and so many movies I want to catch up on before I can even think about writing reviews let alone doing video reviews.

The last idea I have for now is doing shorts with the random ideas I get as I go through life like I used to do sparingly on TikTok. They are funny to me and I am sure some people might find some of them funny as well but also at the same time I am worried about the digital footprint I will leave behind with these kinds of videos. I find myself on a philosophical roller-coaster everytime I think of doing these kinds of videos on TikTok and Youtube shorts. 

So this is what I wanted to share today. And the reason why I titled this Re(Discover) is because I am kind of leaning towards this being my channel name. I want to both discover new things/hobbies and rediscover old ones and in that process Discover/rediscover myself.