Sporadic Whispers: Musings of a Part-Time Writer

I let fear take the reins I thought it would make The best decisions for me I thought that Fear would protect me From being hurt Because it knew what I wanted And what I didn’t want I thought that it would help me Make the right decisions To keep the ones close to me Forever by my side But I was wrong It made me lose sight of what I had And what I could have had After having been in its “Protection” For so long I forgot how it felt to be hurt And that a little hurt is everyone’s share But I couldn’t handle the pain Because I had been, for too long now, In the warm blue hands of fear I know now, and I will never forget I can’t give in to fear anymore It will never hold the reins Of my life agian And I also know I will still be scared time and again But this time I will welcome it like a long lost friend And show it instead How wonderful it is To fall down once And come back stronger than ever

Life is confusing,  isn't it? It wants you to change And when you do It wants you to go back To being your old self I lost someone before Because I couldn't put my feelings Into words And now I'm losing someone again Because I can't shut up

Everything was so easy back then. People say that children don’t know what they want from life because they are immature, but the truth is we knew what we really wanted. And whatever we wanted, we wanted from our hearts and we knew that it would make us happy. And we knew what we had to do to get it. Then we grew up. Of course people may say that grown ups know better. That we make better decisions because we think everything through and decide on what is best for everyone. As children all of us wanted to become something; an engineer, a doctor, a musician, an army officer, etc. And we really wanted it back then. But after growing up we started thinking, about what others wanted us to become, about what would be a better choice for a better financial and social status. We started thinking about what people would say and think of us. And it’s not just about our decisions about  career , we think too much about things as simple as what we want to eat and wear. For instance, a few we